Laughing

Haha well Katrina told me a few days ago that I seem to like to laugh at people. You know something? Come to think of it I do laugh at a lot of people! If I ever laughed at someone I'm terribly sorry I don't really mean to laugh at you I guess its just a stupid habit of mine. When I was in elementary and something bad happened to me all my parents would do was laugh about it. Yeah not exactly the right way to raise your kid and I used to cry about it too.... Well elementary wasn't exactly the best years of my life either cause there was always those stupid idiots that pick on just cause they're bigger or angry that you're smarter than them. I remember this one time all I did was look at a kid and he slammed me into the wall and clutched my neck and started twisting my head asking me what I was looking at. I didn't know the kid I didn't do anything to him and all I did was look at him for like one second. My parents drove up and the kid left and all they did was laugh about it. Growing up with a bunch of people that didn't care sort made me learn that attitude too. To be totally honest whenever I see people in pain I don't feel anything for them. I'll ask them if they're alright just to be nice but I won't feel bad for them. It's horrible but I guess its the result of being raised so badly. So why do I laugh at a lot of people? Well I guess you could say that it's just a bad habit that I picked up from bad parents. So if I ever seem rude to you or if it seems that I don't care, I apologize really I do! For once I wish I knew what it was like to care for someone or be cared for. When I see other people with people they care for they look so happy! I wish I had some people that I could feel that way towards or felt that way towards me. I always feel so empty around people but all I can do is laugh about it.......