Deterioration

Growing up in a very plastic and materialistic environment I can say that I've seen the world for what it truly is early than most people have. It disappoints me to see how many people in the world are blinded by what truly matters and would give up high moral values for their materialistic desires. One can not truly say they've seen the world for what it truly is until they are on the outside looking in just like how you can't see what your house looks like if you're sitting in your house all day. It sad to see people split from each other and look down upon one another because they do not wear the latest fashions or don't have the coolest gear. People that become obsessed with material possessions and social status can never really find true happiness in life. How can you be happy when you are always worrying about how to be the "in" or "popular" person? Its just sad to see people revolve their lives around such ridiculous things. I'll admit that as a kid growing up I always wanted to be one of those popular kids with the coolest gadgets but when I finally did get them I didn't feel as accomplished or as happy as I thought I would be. I live a fairly simple life and I don't want much to tell you the truth, thats why when people ask me what I want I just say "I don't know" Cause that's the plain truth I don't know what I want because I don't have that many materialistic desires. I mean of course I would like to have a fancy car and a decent house but there's nothing much that I really want cause I find that materials don't make me very happy unless it was from a friend in that case anything would be fine for a present. I wonder if there's a place in this world where material possessions and social status doesn't matter to people. Where people like each other for who they truly are and not what they have. If there is a place like that I'd sure like to find it. The world is deteriorating as people become more and more obsessed in social status and material possessions and its just a real sad sight to see.

Study, Study, Study!

So I just took my first mid term exams yesterday and let me tell you something these exams are far beyond the ones that I have taken in high school. Back in high school you could study last minute or probably not even at all and still ace the exam (I can say this out of personal experience) but mid terms in college are so much different! They make sure you have a complete understanding of everything that you were taught in lecture to the point where all of the answers are so related that you absolutely have to be sure of what you are doing in order to get an A in the class. I came into college thinking that it would be a breeze like high school but I now stand corrected. I'm pretty sure I didn't score an "A" but I know I didn't score anything less than a "C" but I won't find out until tomorrow. Besides that I scored a 5.5 of 8 on my math exam and I need a 7 of 8 to pass but I have 5 more tries so yeah. From the start of school up until now I've just been slacking off and doing all of my work last minute but now that I know what the exams are like I know how hard I must study. Growing up I always told myself that I'm going to college and I'll get my degree to prove to everyone that getting your college degree isn't affected by you background, you don't have to come from a rich family, or a smart family, you don't even need to have a family at all. Whether or not you get your college degree depends completely on yourself. People nowadays are so materialistic and so unsure of themselves that they don't believe this, they get into college thinking that because they're rich or they're popular they'll automatically get their degree, or they came to college and got into a program because their friends are in it. Well I got this far by myself. I'm in college because I want to be here and I'm in the engineering program because I want to be an engineer. I made it halfway through my trip now all I have to do is prove what I've been saying all these years. Its time I stopped playing games and started getting serious about my college education. If I continue the study habits I have now I know I'll never make it through engineering but this is where I put my game face on and start studying for real.