Dreams

I think I had a pretty good spring break although I wish a spent more time of it with my friends rather than the kids at work. This weekend was pretty good though I went to D&B with Clarence and J.J. on Saturday. Fricken Clarence was talking about a lap dance he had at a club and kids were right next to him playing a game. So fricken hilarious! Haha! It's been so long since we hung out but he finished college along time ago so I guess his job just eats up his time. But anyway after that we went cruising in Waikiki and we passed a toy shop. We went inside to look around and I saw an action figure of my favorite villain from the show One Piece. It was of the Shichibukai Sir Crocodile. It reminded me of that one episode where he was fighting and Luffy told him that he wanted to be Pirate King. Crocodile laughed and said that "The longer you hold on to your dreams the more they seem to fade." I guess in some sense this is true. The longer you wait to take your dream the farther away it will get from you. This was something that I had to learn the hard way. Throughout my life I guess I've never really been the person to go out and take things but instead I waited for things to come my way. I really regret it because I know I could've had a lot of fabulous things but instead I ended up waiting too long and those dreams just faded away. Now I'm starting to take faster action to achieve what I want but old habits die hard sometimes I'm still a bit timid to do new things but I dunno. Its funny how I learn so much from the villains in the show maybe it means that I'll be a villain later as well? haha well I've never really been the heroic type.... But it got me thinking of my own dreams and ambitions will they ever come true? I don't know I guess I'll just have to live life through and see where I go from here. Everyone has dreams some have big dreams and some have small, some are short term and some are long. I see dreams get crushed everyday and it makes me wonder if my dreams will get crushed as well. We all can't have what we want but we're still entitled to some sort of happiness I wonder what will make me happy in the future? Some dreams come true and there are others that die. I guess I'm just afraid of what the future has in store for me.