A reflection in the water

I finished work a bit early today, I ended up finishing at 1 P.M. I went mini golfing with some kids and stuff, kind of hectic cause those morons obviously can't follow simple directions but whatever. After work I decided to spend some time at the park because I guess today is one of those days where I just needed a couple of hours to myself. I felt like going somewhere quiet to think, to escape the world, to avoid other people, so I ended up going to one of the parks in Ocean Pointe. Its a really nice and quiet community where all the houses are the same (which kind of irritates me) but a really safe environment. There's this one Ocean Pointe park thats near the million dollar houses that I just love going to. The grass is lush, there's lots of shade, and people rarely go there so this is where I usually find myself going whenever I need some alone time, it's like my little get away spot. So I spent about two hours just lying in the shade and staring up at the clear blue sky and I had a really nice view of a tree which made me wish I had my camera.... I'll probably go camera shopping tomorrow because I saw a really nice Exilim for sale. Well anyway after lying in the grass for about two hours staring at the sky a dog ran up to my and starting crawling all over me, it kind of startled me but I started laughing about it. After that I decided to walk around a bit and then I started staring into a stream. The water was dirty but I like how the sun glistened off the water and I started staring at the water more and I was looking at my reflection in the water. But instead of just seeing my own reflection I saw three reflections. Haha no I don't do drugs and I don't drink either but instead of seeing just myself staring back at me I saw myself, Heidi, and Teuuila staring back at me. We were wearing black but I was standing a bit further from them and my black wasn't as dark as their black it was like this old faded black it looked as if it was worn out. I kind of stood there wondering what this meant to me but it didn't take me long to figure out what it was. I saw these reflections not because the heat was going to my head but because those reflections were not too different from my own. Well besides the boy girl difference anyone of those reflection probably could've been my own. It was kind of awkward but at the same time I think I knew what it meant. After talking to Heidi about something that she and Teuuila wanted to do I guess I sort of related that to myself because for one I have a score to settle too and that kind of stuff was something I had a passion for when I was younger. Yeah it used to be my life's blood but not so much anymore. I guess over the years I either got lazy or I just stopped caring about things and my passion for it just started to fade. Just like a black shirt at first it's dark but as you wear it continually overtime it starts to fade and wear out although if you care for it the right way it will stay as dark as the day you bought it. I was kind of surprised though because they way the two talked was kind of similar to the way I used to think back in elementary which is why their clothes were a darker black than mine. I guess they reminded me of me when I was younger. But the activity? Oh I'm totally down for it! Someone needs a good helping of punishment but then again at the same time I don't really care whether or not the person gets punished or not whatever. Gosh I can't think this blog turned out kind of junkie but whatever maybe I'll do a better job on the next one? It weird how you can see more than yourself in a reflection in the water.

The Hidden Part of the Deal

So I was taking a walk through my neighborhood today something that I usually find myself doing whenever I'm bored and have a free day and I saw the weirdest thing today. I saw a drunk lady walking down the road. Well she was either drunk or high I don't know. Well anyway she was walking down the same side walk I was and she was really wobbly and she was laughing and muttering to herself and that made me wonder why people drink and do drugs. Either today was a special occasion or she just has a lot of problems because I haven't seen anyone like that in a long while. I'll admit that life gets pretty hard at times and I even find myself wishing I could just escape the world and forget about all my problems even if it was just for a minute but is that one minute of bliss really worth drinking and doing drugs? I mean sure you can forget about all your problems for a couple of minutes hey maybe even a couple of hours if you go far enough but the price you have to pay is far greater than the pains of reality that you are trying to escape from. I remember as a young child there used to be tons of anti drugs and drinking commercials and one talked about how with every cigarette you smoke you chop off about a couple of days or so of your life. I believe one pack is equivalent to one or two months or something like that. Well anyway no matter how drunk or high you get you'll always have to pay the price in the end. I guess you can compare this to a restaurant you can sit there and eat and eat and not worry about a thing but no matter how much you eat or how long you take you're always going to receive your bill in the end. This is true for drinking and smoking, no matter how high or drunk you get you'll end up paying for it. The price you ask? Well that depends on how much you did but I guess you can expect a couple of years chopped off from your life. It's such a ridiculous deal I don't see why some people take it. I mean a few minutes of bliss in exchange for a couple of months of their life. It's like borrowing money with 400% interest, not even worth it. But I guess to some people it is worth it, just to escape from reality even just for a few minutes. Some people would consider it "fun" others would say its the only way they can handle life but you know something? I don't think I'll ever drink or do drugs I learned to see beyond those illusions because one of the big rules in business is to look for every single flaw in the deal possible including that hidden part of the deal.

My Love for Color

After I thought about dating and stuff I started thinking about how my love for color started. I remember it started over the summer at Seariders. This was like back in the day when I couldn't edit for crap, I was knew to video I barely knew what I was doing but I remember it so clearly. Like on of the first few days we got into mixed groups I was working with Bird, Heidi, and Sean. So our first assignment was to make a 30 sec spoof using music from a collection that John picked. So we did a video about Bird being like this wind up toy (we dressed him in a paper tutu and everything). So how it went was Heidi came and wound up Bird and he would jump out of the box and start dancing to the music and then we showed all these other people dancing with him. When it came to the editing though thats when it all started.  I guess I forgot to white balance the camera cause the because the footage was yellow. At the time I didn't know how to fix it and you should've seen the look on Heidi's face she looked so disappointed and I felt so dumb. After a while I guess Heidi just gave up on the video and I spent like a hour or so trying to figure out how to do a white balance with a color corrector (which I can do like nothing now) until John came and helped me out. He showed me how simple it was and I felt even dumber but Heidi seemed to perk up after it was fixed. Well anyway that experience made me feel so ashamed of myself I said that no matter what I would master color correction and that would never happen to me again! Well I think I've kept my word on that because I've gone far deeper into color correction than anyone in the history of James Campbell high I can even color correct better than John now (I think). I've gotten to the point where I can make anything look like a film style video (not to brag or anything) I'm so proud of myself! But yeah I guess a lot of my success in color is credited to Heidi if she didn't look so disappointed I guess I would never have pushed myself to go so in depth into color. So thanks Heidi! I owe you a lot! If it hadn't been for you I wouldn't have made it so far in color and I'm pretty sure that my color style is what helped me win some of my video awards. I just wish I knew how I could pay you back. Who would've thought that my love for color would come from a disappointed face?

Dating?

Haha! So I spent my day playing Pokemon Platinum and I thought I should make a blog about something cause I haven't done so in a while. So while I sat here playing my game I started to wonder "What does a girl look for in a guy? and what does a guy look for in a girl?" To tell you the truth I've never really thought of it until now. Like when a girl and a guy like each other how do they know? and What do they say? I never really think about it because I'm always occupied with some kind of work. After thinking about this I realized how many chances at this kind of thing I had. I guess I feel kind of dumb because I had a lot of opportunities to have a girlfriend but I never really knew they liked me until WAY too late. Its funny cause I'm so smart in school wise things like math but when it comes to girlfriends and dates and stuff I'm like a brain-dead monkey! But oh well I guess the time will come when God thinks I'm ready. I asked some of my friends what its like going out with someone and they all tell me the same thing. "It's alright" they say "There's ups and downs to it." But when I see people fighting and cheating on each other I'm sort of glad that I'm not involved in that kind of stuff. I remember when I was talking a little bit about it with Sean and he told me that sometimes he jealous of me cause sometimes its just too much of a hassle and causes too much problems. I dunno well I guess I don't really need one cause I'm constantly working all the time but it'd be nice to know what it's like. But then again that'd only be more work for me I guess. After seeing what my friends go through I guess I'm not really all that excited to find a date and stuff.

Behind that ugly mask is an uglier person

Today was a GREAT DAY!!!!! Yeah Sam, Ash, and Britt really brightened my day today. But something kind of irritated me later but I guess if I mentioned it that would be bad on my end. Well anyway after I left I went back to Ramiscal's class to eat some chicken nuggets compliments of the triple threat :D While I ate I was really thinking about how fake some people can be. I always thought to myself about how irritating it is to see a bunch of people wearing ugly masks to hide their ugly faces! Now when I say ugly I mean personality wise because I wouldn't consider myself to be that handsome :P Well anyway I was sitting there thinking how funny that wearing those masks are! When you are watching them from the outside you can really see how hideous they are! When they are all together they wear their masks especially when there's other people around but when one person leaves the group even for just a bit they take their ugly masks off and start talking crap about that person and then when that person comes back everyone is friends again! Until of course the next person leaves then its time talk talk crap about them.... Its kinda funny how they all talk crap about each other but when everyone is in the group they're all the best of friends! Yahahahaha! Mmmm yes and according to these masked people I apparently have a GIANT EGO. Well let me explain something, it may look like I have a big ego but if you really knew me then you'd know that I'm joking when I get big headed. Its just a way to get my hyped up for something. I mean if you really think I'm big headed then why don't you do the job better than me and shut me down? Haha! I used to get mad about it but then I figured that those masked people are just jealous. Why? Cause they can't do a better job. Ahahahaha! I guess there goes my "BIG EGO" again but then again I've been showing what I can do! What have those people done? They ran and hid behind someone because they can't face reality. It really disgusts me. But oh well. You can't hide from reality forever because it'll wait for you to take that mask off for as long as it has to. It'll sit there and wait 100 years if necessary but I guess some people would rather wear a mask than take life for what it truly is. Everyday day that passes the poison gets worse. Its way too late for an antidote the poison worked its way to their bones. Some people can be cured but others can't. The longer you stay poisoned the uglier you get. Its sad but its true.

The Grace of an Angel and the Laziness of a Sloth

So today I didn't really have anything to do cause I sent in my 11 entries for youth exchange along with Kaycee's recycling entry so I decided to treat myself to a good lunch for a job well done. I ended up going to Ninja Sushi cause I was craving some noodles. So I sat there eating and thinking back on some old times and I remembered this one time in elementary that I went to Ice Palace I saw an old man skating and when I say old I mean like wrinkly grandpa old. The kind of old where it looked like his leg was gonna snap in half at any moment. At first I was really worried because I thought he might fall and hurt himself but to my amazement he was jumping and doing twirls in the air and all sorts of tricks! The first time I saw him twirl in the air I think my heart skipped a couple of beats because I thought he would fall over but no! He landed with such precision and grace it kind of made me forget how old the guy was. I guess it shows that your body can get old but your grace is something that's eternal. Remembering this made me think about someone that I see almost everyday. He graduated school last year and he doesn't have a job. What does he do you ask? He plays video games at the club all day. I honestly don't know how a person can just throw their life away like that! If I was in a situation where I wasn't able to pay for college I would be busting my butt instead living the pathetic life of a jobless person who still depends on their parents. I mean its cool to ask you parents for help because we all need help in some point in my life and I'm pretty sure that I'll need it too but still I believe he should at least get a job and help his parents out a bit. I don't I honestly don't know how some people can handle being so helpless like that! Some people don't have a choice because of certain conditions but for the people that do have a choice and can do something about it really irritates me. The finest riches in the world don't just fall into your lap you have to go out there and find it and earn it. Well whatever there are somethings that I will probably never understand. Having a hard life isn't a choice but making you life better is. I don't know about that guy but I'm choosing to make my life better..... I'm going to college and I'll get my degree!!!

Relaxing day

Hahahaha! Today was a surprisingly good day :P Went to Farrells with Heidi and Shanese... No one from campbell could go so yeah... but it was freakin hilarious! Stupid farells! Their ice-cream made me sick for like half an hour or so! After that we went all over the mall looking at stuff and then we went to Ross to try on some clothes.... HAHAHA! Look at my new picture I look like a diva! xD I tried on high heels for the first time and I gotta give props to girls that can stand in them all day cause its fricken hard! After that we went looking at random garbage and we found some HUGE shoes!!!!!! The shoe had to have been like twice the size of my foot! I guess I know where the green giant buys his shoes :P After that we went to hot topic and was talking about spikey underwear and stuff then it was time to go home. I picked up Fire Emblem for my cousin and I pre ordered Pokemon Platinum!!!! Hahaha! It comes out on the 22nd I can't wait! Time for some old school pokemon punishment! Well today was fantastic I really had fun with Heidi and Shanese too bad the others couldn't come it would've been way more hilarious!