Metamorphosis

So today I saw a butterfly flying while walking home after grad practice and it made me think about change. Change is so random I mean at first the butterfly started off as a caterpillar and as time flies by it turns into a butterfly. That's so random I mean if you never knew about the life cycle of a caterpillar you would never expect it to sprout wings and start flying around and stuff. After thinking about that metamorphosis though it started making me think about my high school life and how I changed like that caterpillar. In Freshman year I used to be such a shy person and I still am in a way but now I go on broadcast in front of the school almost everyday, I speak to business people at board meetings, I show my videos to people in my community. I never imagined myself talking to all of these people. I think what hit me the most was my friends though. I remember in Freshman year me, Gary, Arnel, and Sean used to be so close we were like the fantastic four (except we were all guys) we used to do everything together. These were the days where I actually looked forward to coming to school everyday. But I guess as times change so do people. Like our teacher predicted we split up and ended up barely talking to each other and it makes me wonder if this is what it'll be like with all my high school friends. Everyone is splitting up and going their own ways going on to fancy colleges across the U.S. It makes me kind of sick thinking about it but that's life I guess. We can't hold on to things forever and that's something I just can't accept. I guess you could say I'm old fashioned not really the type of person for change. Kind of like a republican I guess if you put it in political terms. I dunno I've always been afraid of change even though I know its for the best I'm always living in the past and thats one of the things that just keeps dragging me down in life. On the last few days of my high school career I looked at people I've known for years and everyone has changed a lot. Some made great changes and some made changes for the worse. I looked at myself and not much has changed. I always told myself that I'd be a better person, I'd be more outgoing, I'd be more confident in things, but I guess I've failed at those things. Everyone in the world is changing except me. I'm the same old kid from elementary just trapped in an aging body in an ever changing world. Someday I hope I'll change.