Brothers

I'm graduating on Saturday and that isn't too far from now. It got me thinking back on my high school years and the people that made the most impact on my life. Dang man then I started thinking about you. You've always been a great friend and I've always viewed you as you family. You were probably the closest thing to a brother that I have ever had. Throughout all the years that I've known you I always looked up to you. Whenever there was a situation you always seemed to know what to do and when to do it. Well at least in my eyes you did. You were the guy that I always wanted to be, you had the brains, you had the potential, you had the looks, you pretty much had everything that I wanted. It's so strange though how opposite we've become though. Like I said earlier you have the looks, the brains, and the resources to take you far. You could've went to an ivy league school no doubt about it full ride and everything if you tried but you didn't try. I started off with nothing, I don't have good looks, I'm not charming, everyone looks at me like the secondary character and yet I was accepted to all of these mainland universities. But where am I going? I'm going to UH for now. Why? Because I'm not like you I don't have the confidence to travel and all that. Now that I think of it though I should've went to a mainland school and I regret not starting on scholarships early because I could've been the one to go to some fancy school and get a fabulous degree. You didn't work on scholarships either but you know what the difference was? You knew about all of these scholarships way before time unlike myself where I found out last minute. You had everything you needed to make it far in life but you ignored those opportunities for parties and fun, opportunities and resources that I would've killed for. In the first few years I met you and the others we said we'd make it big. Now that I look at it I'm not too sure if that's possible anymore. I worked hard to get where I'm at and although I'm tired and dying out, I can't give up just not yet. Some people from our group will make it far while others dropped out of the race a long time ago but I'm going to be on that success train and I just hope you won't be the one waving goodbye to us on the platform while that train takes us away. I will get that degree and show everyone that you CAN get somewhere starting with nothing and I'll slap the faces of those who looked down upon me with my success. Many of the more educated people I talk to talk down about you a lot but I defend you and they just laugh. I hope that someday you'll be able to prove them wrong. We both have tired eyes from seeing reality for what it is. The only thing I'm sad about is that you saw the temptations coming but you decided to give into them. Sometimes when we talk you look disappointed like you've failed or something. We don't talk as often as we used to and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because you don't want me becoming like you? Or perhaps its because I'm a loser in your friend's eyes? Or perhaps I've just been a lousy friend all these years. I've always looked at you like a brother and I've always tried to walk in your footsteps but I guess this is the part where its time for us to split. I can't follow you forever because we both have our own ambitions to follow. You have a lot of potential and I hope someday you'll use that potential and become successful one day. Over the years we've really grown apart but I'll always see you as a brother. Like I said earlier you were probably the closest thing to a brother that I could've possible have and I just wanted to thank you for that. I'm not sure as to what your plans are now but I just wish the best of luck to you in whatever you plan on doing. The only thing I have left to say is you have the ability to see things better than other people if you used that vision and your talent for better purposes you'll make it far in life much farther than I could possible go. Good luck to you in life bro.